Sometimes the LGTB community really upsets me. And when it comes to labels…DING DING DING! They tend to really upset me. I don’t necessarily hate them. You can’t get past labels. They exist everywhere. People are black, people are white, people are straight, people are gay, etc. Labels are just descriptions and it is human nature to describe. Labels can even be helpful in cases where you want to refer to a distinct group of people or when you need to exclude a group etc. The problem that I have is the discrimination within the gay community that comes with labels. Commonly the terms femme and stud or ag (whatever! I don’t use any of them very often) are misconstrued and normally “studs” are ridiculed due to this. So let’s clear this up. Femme, Stud, Aggressive, blah, blah, blah, these are all terms to describe TRAITS and VERY LOOSELY appearance. But although “studs” generally dress/look more masculine than femmes this does not mean that a stud has to be manly. Who gave you that dumb idea? Just because she likes to wear a wrap instead of braids, dreads or a low-cut does not make her any less aggressive than the next stud. Just because she doesn’t want to wear her pants 3 sizes too big does not mean she’s not just as “studly” as the next stud.
[Okay maybe I do hate labels. If it were up to me we'd all just be lesbians- no other labels needed.]

But anyway what really IRKS me is the idea of some lesbians that it is not okay for two studs to date. !*&#*! Say what?! And recently I’ve heard some more ignorant ladies say that it’s okay for two femmes to have sex but not to date. *@^$^?! WHAT?! I really don’t even want to understand where these notions come from. How can you fight for the right to get married and the right to be looked at in the same light as straight couples but THEN turn right around and discriminate against people who are just like you?! That makes you a big ass hypocrite. That burns me up inside. Lesbians get your shit together. It’s NEVER wrong for two people to love each other. It doesn’t matter what they dress like, act like WHATEVER. You can’t ask for equality while you’re discriminating against someone else.

There is NEVER an instance where inner-beauty completely outshines outer appearance. Notice I said COMPLETELY. Let me say that again,

There is never an instance in which inner-beauty outshines or overpowers outer appearance.

Some of you may disagree…that is your choice. But you are wrong. Inner beauty is all well and good but a person must have something that is outwardly attractive to you in order for you to become attracted to them. This is human nature. Now it is possible for the two to go hand in hand which is what happens in most cases.

Then there’s this other thing I call the “grow-on-you” syndrome. You know what I’m talking about? Like say you meet this girl or maybe you just saw her for the first time. Now the first time you saw her your face was all scrunched up & you dismissed her. She’s not your type, you don’t like her attitude, she can’t dress, her nose is too wide, she looks like an insect WHATEVER. I’ve felt all types of ways about girls at first. But THEN you see her again..or you talk to her etc. and…she’s not as bad as she was the time before. Then you keep seeing or talking to her & the more she’s around, the less you dislike her or the more you begin to forget why you didn’t like her. You know what I’m talking about now? Like…that b*t(h just grew on you. She’s still that same old wide nosed girl, who laughs funny & can’t dress that well BUT when you look at her…her nose doesn’t look THAT wide anymore.

Now some of you would say that this is a case where inner-beauty outshines outer-beauty but…YOU’RE STILL WRONG. hahaha. If this were the case then we could account for those girls who have great personalities but you would never date because they are “ugly.” The thing I find remarkable about most people (men and women) is that they don’t really know what draws them to a person. Be it her lips, or her smile, the way she walks or the length of her hair, there is SOMETHING that must satisfy you outwardly in order for her insides to be efficient. Think about it. Could you REALLY have sex with someone who was only attractive to you “on the inside” ? I highly doubt it. Quite often I find that a lot of people use “inner beauty” as an excuse when they are ashamed to say that they do in fact find their significant other or the person they’re “talking to” attractive. Just because everyone around you thinks she’s ugly doesn’t mean she is. It just means they have different tastes. Or that she hasn’t had the time to “grow” on them. Don’t let people talk down to you about your girl! And if you agree with them just to save face…smh…well fuck your soul. But in any case, there has to be some sort of balance between inner and outer beauty. One cannot totally overpower the other.

Did I ever tell you guys what I do in my down time? Not that it’s a good thing. I make random videos. And eventually I’ll upload them all to youtube. But the people aren’t ready for talent like mine yet. haha! I wouldn’t call it talent. Unless it’s a talent to be as lame as I am…Which is quite possible. But anywho, today you guys can entertain yourselves with my Rockstar 101 spazmatic episode. Find me a girl who’ll love me and I SWEAR no more videos ever. (that should give you some sort incentive to find me a boo!) I should be on tv. I could be like the Lesbian Bachlorette. With a whole panel of sexy lesbians fighting for my love. Somebody get me a hookup with VH1. This could be a hit. I can see it now —Lani the Lesbian-Last Chance for Love. That sounds like the title of a bad children’s book huh? Ohh well! Go get me VH1! I’m pretty enough to be on tv dammit! okay, watch this random spazzing while I go do somebody else’s homework. (because that is how I pay my bills. – sad huh?)

Sooo since I’m not going to be having sex for a while, I figured I’d blog all of my awesome sex tips for you guys to try. I like to think I’m a pretty decent sex partner. At least, my past partners have been pretty satisfied. *ahem* Sex in my opinion, is very closely related to your personality. If you’re very withdrawn and quiet, shy and conservative – your sex probably reflects that. And in the same way, if you’re wild and outspoken, loud and crazy, – your sex reflects just that. There are very few exceptions to this rule. The only one I can think of is the quiet freak. You know, the girl who doesn’t talk much, is usually very shy, but turns out to be quiet the sexual vixen. She usually likes to try new things and will easily agree to the wildest of ideas. That one is me. Anyway, here are a few of my tips.

Tip #1 : Noise during sex IS important. Even if you’re not the “dirty talking” type, some time of noise improves sex GREATLY! No one likes a quiet girl. So if you’re not a talker, moans & sighs work just fine. The main point is to let her know that you like what she’s doing.

Tip #2 : It’s not always about being loud. Everyone doesn’t particularly care for a loud ass girl. It can sometimes distract your partner and you from the point (which is the sex!). Pull her close and use a soft forceful tone in her ear. Guaranteed to turn her on.

Tip #3 : A lot of my friends think I’m crazy when I say this but it definitely works. In the middle of the action, when her strap (or fingers , whichever you prefer) are working your insides. Kiss her. Not lippy kisses, tongue kisses. Don’t let the kiss distract you because you’ll need to be aware of what’s going on “down there”. When she hits that spot that makes you moan, do it! Don’t break the kiss!  Just moan right into her mouth. Guaranteed to send a chill down her spine.
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I’m trying to cut back on my depressing posts. is it working? fuck love. soooo the only things left to talk about are school..and sex. This is gonna be interesting. I shouldn’t be blogging right now. I should be studying for my history test. FUCK! I’m probably gonna fail it…I’d like to say I’m gonna kill dr. dumbass but then they’d be able to use that as evidence against me if I did. SO I’ll just say “I wouldn’t mind if someone made him disappear.” Hit me up all you professional hitmen(women? are there professional hitWOmen?) Anywho, I’m gonna try to study. But tomorrow! I’m gonna start posting all my good sex tips. Since I’m not gonna be able to put them to use, I figure somebody may as well have some good lively adult fun. k, study time!

umm let me think, what could I do to kick it off? how bout I cum all on yo d*ck and then I lick it off? -nicki minaj

I don’t even like her that much but that was so catchy to me. I’m not even a heterosexual freak but I like to say that line from time to time.
if it’s not clear yet, I NEED SEX! and if this trick doesn’t come in here and piss me off I WILL get my wish tonight.

f*ck feelings & relationships. just strap me from the back…straight out of the shower…in front of the mirror. I’ll wipe it off so I can watch you thrust into me & then we’ll fog it up again.
GAHHH! *silent prayer to the sex godd* please don’t let me sleep with the pocket rocket tonight. I need some real lovin!

On the third day of the fourth month of the year two-thousand and nine, I gave you my all. I let down every guard and gave you every piece of my heart. I knew it was too soon. How could I fall so quickly after just being hurt the worst that I had ever been. How could I allow someone else to get to me? But I did. And now I spend every second of every hour of every day of every month of this year regretting it. I used to pride myself on being so smart….but somehow being with you made me so dumb. I should have left you alone when I realized that I was giving up portions of my life to make you happy….granted they were all things that honestly I could do without, you never gave up anything. I gave up financial stability to help you fix your problems, and found myself taking on more of your responsibility than you were. You tend to get angry when I bring up the things I’ve done for you and how I need help….always saying that I …ugh. to be continued. I have to get ready for class.

I think it’s pretty clear what this is BUT for those less fortunate persons who may have never seen one, it is a STRAP. Most often used by members of the lesbian community to pleasure their partners. You are probably wondering where I’m going with this…right? I was sitting in my bathroom on the toilet…I use a lot of time to think in there and I began to think about straps…and GIRLFRIENDS. hahaha. Why is it that the vast majority of lesbian women, when embarking on a new relationship, expect you to Read the rest of this entry »

don’t laugh….i know you will. That’s what people do when you tell them don’t. How rude.  I need to stop being so anti. It causes me to do things like what I’m about to show you. You’re probably wondering why I didn’t show you first…Or maybe not because you probably don’t really care. And you shouldn’t. Actually you should stop reading RIGHT NOW. Just click the “x”. Nothing good will come of this. It’d probably be much more beneficial to you if you scrolled to the bottom of this page and checked out the links.

This my blog I can do what I want, I’m a big girl now. for anyone who doesn’t know where that reference came from, listen to Candy by The Pack. LOVE IT!

Okay..I have hella work to get done. I’m behind and it’s only the second week of school. UGH..anyone know a good math tutor?? I need one. BAD. But okay…*sigh* since you’re still here…and I was entirely too sad to actually post it on New Year’s Day…I shall post this random act of sadness.

i’ve been thinking about being celibate for a while but right now I need SEX.

My little yellow vibrator can only do so much.

I miss how she knew exactly what to do..and I never had to say it. I don’t think I’m going to find anyone who can do it quite the same….

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