Insanity constantly creeps closer
as I sit here
wallowing in my emotions.
An ocean of painful memories
one in which I am not floating.
Daily I wish that something would change
that I could forget
but instead the more time passes…
I continue to remember, and in consequence
the more I regret.
My heart often throbs
and I muffle the sobs
I don’t want to keep letting her hear me cry.
Tired of allowing her to see how I
am affected by her presence
She’s like a virus
and even in silence
she’s poison.
I’m choking
all I want is to spit it back up
vomit her out
but all I can do is swallow slowly.
And even as I swallow it’s all still here.
A lump in my throat, a pain in my chest
continuous unrest as I sit in distress
while she walks away
leaving me lonely.
Alone.
And all I want is to go home
but my name on this lease
is much like an inscription on a tombstone
……
blah.
to be continued.
or maybe i’ll just leave this all alone. :-/